God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble.
Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea, though its waters roar and foam and the mountains quake with their surging. Psalm 46:1-3,10
My headache wouldn't leave me; but it's my heart that aches more. Seeing him the way he is, even though he's out of the ICU, made me feel rather lost for words and that strong emotion to kneel before God in prayer.
And as I prayed and noticed Dj's eyes welling up in tears, I was reminded that there is always something good in store that our human eyes cannot see. After every storm, there is always the promise of a rainbow -- a covenant of God's love and protection.
I believe and trust in You. BTW, Danube is beautiful, don't you think so? (photo above) Somewhere in Serbia, also where Emir Kustarica filmed Black Cat White Cat -- my most favouritest film ever! ;)
After all that has happened of late, I don't know whether I'm stronger -- as Reinar supposes it, or on the verge of another emotional breakdown -- that d so worries about... I really don't know what else to think anymore, except to believe that I now have every right to be emo, or even to throw a crazy tantrum (ok, maybe not).
But one thing I do know, and that is that I"m so incredibly loved by my Father. Faith, trust, love. At such an awful time, I'm thankful to be able to still love; love never fails.
Is there hope for every man? A solid place where we can stand In this dry and weary land Is there hope for every man?
Is there love that never dies? Is there peace in troubled times? Someone help me understand Is there hope for every man?
It seems there's just so many roads to travel It's hard to tell where they will lead My life is scarred, my dreams unraveled Now I am scared to take the lead
If I could find someone to follow Who knows my pain and feels the way The uncertainty of my tomorrow The guilt and pain of yesterday
There is hope for every man A solid place where we can stand In this dry and weary land There is hope for every man
There is love that never dies There is peace in troubled times Will we help them understand Jesus is hope for every man
Actually, when you get to a point when you just get beaten up over and over, it's really quite a feat to believe and trust that Jesus is the hope -- not just for any man, but for you, for me, for every man. When everything just keeps collapsing before you and you start to wonder if there's any good left in this world for you, it takes more than a giant to see God's love.
But because my walk with Christ is more than words, and far more than what I feel, I know and I believe and I will trust in Him.
Father, help me get back on my feet and be that tumbling dolly that may stumble but will never fall. Enable me and be my strength where I am weak, for I am nothing apart from You. My life as frail and fragile as it is right now, make it wholly Yours, Lord... because Father, there's no greater purpose and joy than for me to be able to honour You with whatever I am left with. My everything. My all.
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