my Papa holds me
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Try as I may, I could not find a photo that even closely resembled that image of my Abba Father carrying me. Although the emotions evoked by this photo came really close, as did the image above.
It all started when I was meditating upon the passage from John 1:35-39. When he saw Jesus passing by, he said, "Look, the Lamb of God!"
When the two disciples heard him say this, they followed Jesus.
Turning around, Jesus saw them following and asked, "What do you want?" They said, "Rabbi" (which means Teacher), "where are you staying?"
"Come," he replied, "and you will see."
John 1:36 And when I found myself following as the did the two disciples, I saw instead my Lord Jesus turning to me and saying, "Come, sit with me." whilst I turned away in shame.
And then again the scene repeated in my mind and once again, Jesus turned to me and said, "Come, my child, come sit with me." But again I looked in shame at my own feet, unwilling to respond. Afraid.
It was then that the whole scene changed to that of a raging sea. I couldn't see it rage, for I was carried with my head against his shoulder, my back against the sea. The waves were frightening, though I didn't see, I heard it roar. But in His arms I felt very safe. Safe from any storm.
But there He said, "Look ahead, my child. Look."
I shook my head and refused to look; I was afraid to look.
No, Lord. I don't want to look. Let me rest. Let me dwell in this moment, when I can feel You holding me. I don't want to do anything more. Please let me rest, with You.
I soon fell asleep; and He didn't probe.
Wondered, I did. About what was it ahead that He wanted me to see. In my mind I knew, they were great things -- waiting for me to accomplish, awaiting my faith to embrace.
But Father dearest, it's been all so painful. I'm so scared. So very scared. I need Your strength, Lord. So very much.
And again my Abba Father whispers into my ears,
The LORD your God is with you,
he is mighty to save.
He will take great delight in you,
he will quiet you with his love,
he will rejoice over you with singing.
The sorrows for the appointed feasts
I will remove from you;
they are a burden and a reproach to you.
Zephaniah 3:17-18
And so I finally looked -- to much delight.
I still can't see far, but I know my Saviour carries me.
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